Sadly, today I learned of a young man’s death. Inexplicable to all including his wife and young daughter. Events such as these make us
re-evaluate our life. For me there are two things wrong with this…
First, why do we always wait until some tragedy strikes for self-reflection? I try at least annually to look where I have been and where I might be going. I evaluate where my volunteer hours are going, what I might be contributing, but my overall life takes a back seat to living life. So, do we spend our “current”
life assessing what we are doing? Would that impede any forward progress? Who knows, some days I may say yes “live in the now” other times I may be more reflective. Looking at our life introspectively too much may make us forget what our now is. Not looking enough may make us forget what our tomorrow may be.
Secondly, do we change things because we believe they hold no value? I am a serial volunteerer. If I change that about me, and I change as a reaction to a tragedy, are my changes real or just reactionary? Who benefits from this change and who suffers? Of course, I could change and decide I like doing my laundry and that change would benefit me, and I don’t really see a down side to others but, that particular change is too much of a commitment for me to contemplate.
Today I took a look at my life as if it was a big chalkboard with my life schematic drawn out. I decided I need a really big eraser.